But interesting to say women’s muscle fibres are better for endurance than men’s. Good at least to dispel the myth of women being stronger in lower body, a lot of amazon worshippers and fm carry fans have deluded themselves to thinking women are not weaker than men or are stronger even, they’re only seeing a tiny niche to accomodate their fantasy. Even then having bulky muscles is far from natural for most men. It’s most definitely a masculine body type to have big muscles. Proof that muscle women are less female when they have increased testosterone in them. falls back on this idea that her success is fraudulent despite having the chief of general surgery validating her skills and talent. that thinking of if she can't achieve success independently, she's unworthy of it. so leyla reverted back to holding herself to these impossible standards, the same one that had her trying to study for a massive medical license exam while working full time as a driver and living in her car. but finding out about the truth behind the 5th spot brought the imposter syndrome roaring back to life despite when she heard about it, floyd was complimenting her relentlessly, praising her talent and even offering his own revelation about nottingham and how his spot being bought also didn't take away from the fact that he's an exceptional doctor. it was first apparent in her disbelief and way she talked about herself getting a residency spot in 3x14 and cycled through again in 4x02 and 4x03 but i thought from then on it had mostly been settled. You're right anon, i do think leyla has a strong case of imposter syndrome and that fed into her reaction as well. from wiping out the waitlist for the meals for senior program so her patient wouldn't suffer from malnutrition to giving brandon her personal number in 4x01 so he would have help remembering how to take his medicine to providing all the residents with new ipad and equipment because everyone deserves a level playing field. like you said anon, lauren is a genuinely nice person who makes kind gestures. lauren buying food and clothes for leyla weren't attempts at owning her or buying her affection. we literally see the episode and countless scenes in future episodes that disprove that notion. they told her that her technology, not having to take 4 buses to get to work, made her privileged. similar to what happened in 4x02 with the residents. but the way she lumped in the clothes and food to this idea of being bought? being owned? to say that those were things she didn't think she earned? it's like finding out about the 5th spot dropped this shroud over her eyes that made her retroactively see things in ways that aren't true. Look, i totally get the fury at the 5th spot situation because that was a whole different universe of crossing lines. why? did she think someone else was more needy than her for that resource? what would it have taken for her to accept going to a shelter? where was her line before admitting okay, i could use some help? with her being a reoccuring character i don't know if we're going to get someone challenging leyla on that or see her introspection. i mean leyla turned down a spot at a shelter and would rather live in her car on the streets in nyc. why is her idea of success and worth so deeply engrained in that concept? because it's not /just/ about money. done the best i could with what little i had." but there's so much more i need to know. like we know she was a doctor and she trained in war torn areas, she's had hardships, "i've always scraped by. it twists me up even more that the writers are putting such an emphasis on this idea of earning your success without the help of anyone or anything through leyla when we know so little about her backstory. needlessly suffering or enduring hardship or being distrustful of kind gestures to feel like you've truly earned something isn't a healthy. so i understand that chip on your shoulder that leyla has but. i'm a first generation american and i was raised all my life with this idea of doing it yourself and every good deed or nice thing someone does for you has an unspoken string attached that you need to pay back. but when leyla made that comment about the food and clothes and saying that it's on her for going along with those things, it frustrated me on a visceral level i didn't expect. It's easy to focus on lauren's flaws and faults because she's the main character, we've been with her for 3 seasons, gotten detailed looks into her past and struggles and well let's be honest she does still have a lot to reconcile.
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